Lyrics by me

To us


First Time

There's not much you have to go on by I understand
you have to preserve your modesty and to yourself be good

You only have a picture and a few words from me
here's really no reason for you to believe in me

Yet you took the chance and meditated
To me that meant a lot I realized

Do you know I have been rejected by many
To you it may sound funny

Neither black nor white I am
Yet you saw something that is really to me calm

In a world of danger
I hope you do prosper

There's nothing from me to fear
To you let me reassure

Trust me on a future together
That is what I really offer

What am I really after
A friendship that endures and more

How can I tell you who I am
That question makes me the man that I am

Philosophy is dear to me
Please do bless me

Know me if you will
I am not run of the mill

Treasure you I will
For you I might even kill

How can I say this is indeed forever
I do know you I will treasure

These songs are really yours
Did you know I love the doors

Music is but one way to make love
Teach me what it is do move

Have you not inspired this
Let us seal it with a kiss

I go on writing as if theres no tomorrow
Love let me from you borrow

May I never make you unhappy
Tell me there's at least a maybe

My poetry will not last forever
I'll certainly need a makeover

Make me the person you would make love to
Don't you think I also want to

Imapatience is the virtue of men they say
Hope you don't think so I pray

Judge me if you want to
Tell me everything you find you do need to

I will learn from you
Everytime I make love to you

No, I am not a charmer
This inspiration is yours my dear

Much I have lost and much I have won
Theres not a lot of good that I have done

I have to say I have loved before
With time I have grown more

Other girlfriends I had this I cannot deny
It is truth that I dare not defy

Would you rather I cheat and lie
I know that I'd rather not many times die

Is there something special about you I ask
I have now taken off my mask

Taboos there are and evil does exist
For social rules and dramas I care not

Will you go to the opera with me
Will you drink that wine with me

To me you look just fine
Sometimes the hair then the eyes, everything about you is nice

It is you mind that I love
It's your soul that I want to realize

becoming one with you I dream of
How to do it I am not sure of

Pleasures of the flesh are weak and not my kind of steak
What else then must I let you take

I know I don't own my own self
To my inner voice I have been deaf

Truth be told I have a lot to learn
It does not matter how much I earn

There's something that I really miss
It's someone I just could not kiss

Missed I have been by some
Killed I have been by some

Learning to live again has become my passion
In every mistake I made there was a lesson

My sins are now my only regrets
To remedy them I seek not forgiveness

Time is more important than ever
Let's not waste this moment which is so near

I have smelled the Moonlight and seen the fragrance of spring
It is really your very being

I will always share with you
Be honest, own me, will you?


Rebuttal to "Sweet Home Alabama"


Red and Blue

every four years it is all marked red, to that South I never wanna go back
where the "N" word is still used, and to them I am just a boy black

Reds are not lovers
There the Governors are killers

Yes I know, as long as I say i'm sorry and don't worry
I'll be okay if I don't think much really

Reds are not lovers
There the Governors are killers

That's not my flag nor that of my country no I cant salute to that
Too much blood as flowed too many people have stood up to that

Reds are not lovers
There the Governors are killers

I cannot lie, after dark, there, I'm afraid; when the white knights are out
Afraid they really are I know, I'm just some threat they could do without

Reds are not lovers
There the Governors are killers

I love my Gospel and I love Neil Young and I love the Rhythm and Blues
It's them who are caught in a trap, to them this music is news

Reds are not lovers
There the Governors are killers

Yes massah I must say and walk the other side I must
It's an unwritten rule and they say I am powered by lust

Reds are not lovers
There the Governors are killers

Escape I must and I have; The shadows of the South follow me in Chicago
Oh, sweet home these blue areas on the map are marked by red I know



This is dedicated to the Christ


God, don't spare me this despair
Tell me what I gotta repair

To be free is to care
tell me why I'm here

there is no one who is dear
I really love out of fear

Your name I did smear
It's not as if I did not care

So many times have you removed the doubt
everytime I did become proud

You preach pity amity and sympathy
With all I do, inside I make myself empty

This is mine and that is thine
Is how I seperated from all my kind

I know not if I am near
why don't you make it clear

I felt you as I took the beer
I knew I was not the seer

Everyone cares everyone feels
Why then are my eyes full of tears

I am freed by the numbers
This club has so many members

Lord I know you were born in December
It's the extent of my desire

Your voice is loud and you are always clear
my ears hear not and my eyes see no longer

To myself I have become a stranger
Once a believer I have now become weaker

Every drop of wine that I take
All my dear ones it makes me forsake

Don't, please dont show thyself
let me, please, do it myself

I know it is pride
It is the last solace of the deprived

At last this is what I have realized
My lord and friend, you never died



This is to a girlfriend




My imperfections are also real
My love is also real

My feelings are clouded
My intellect does get fooled

I do have the God shining within me
I do have the spirit ahead of me

I know it is all within me
You are the catalyst to help me find me

The wise say it is inside
help me look with your sight

The goal by definition cannot be afar
Is my only fault my own fear

Love is something I may never know
Is to sharing that I have said no

Purity may not ever be mine
Let then the effort be thine

Is it my reflection I see
Will you make me be free

Freedom is perhaps already mine
Do I love these chins that me wind

Space and time are not real
In my soul that much is clear

Why all these questions then
Is this the quality of men?

To love you is what I need
Will you care for my seed

Is fear real
Then why am I here

If fear is not real
That means I do care

To love it seems is to dare
Loving the ant, the beetle, the spider and the swan is rare

It is really near and dear
What the wise call crystal clear

The land of milk and honey is within
without your whole there is nothing

Seeing everything in nothing
Makes one not want a thing

There is something though
Which is why I wear the plough

Nothing said nothing written
I have found truth within

That which is pure
I cannot make impure

These three enemies of mine
I have made friends with in time

What gives me this power, these words, this release
it seems to free me from all disease

What cares for me what protects me
Inside I see it and I see it outside

Do I really want to know oh Lord
I need not cross that threshold

A mystery has its charms I think
When you come, Lord, let me blink

I know not what to write
It seems best to leave this incomplete

However as it may be
Does what inspires me, also desire me?

As I write this I feel the presence of great evil
Will you not let me see God in the Devil




This is to my inspitration to write


Truth be told about my lyrics; only you can give music to these songs
tried I have to have truth speak; in these songs I hope all lies dies

My songs are real
Dont you feel a tear

You took me out of retirement; I love these words that seem to speak
Words have no power without music; I don't mind being taken for meek

My songs are real
Dont you feel a tear

I'd write in the shadows; I'll write in the sunshine
In all kinds of emothions; Let this music be thine

My songs are real
Dont you feel a tear

I love the King and I love my bluegrass; I love the dead and the velvet underground
Create then some tunes; let the world be confound

My songs are real
Dont you feel a tear

Influences there have been many; how can I give credit when I cannot even count
It is what i have learned and what i feel; It is what i have been taught

My songs are real
Dont you feel a tear

Instruments there are many; the instrument of the mind is the best
In these songs I write; i do let my case rest

My songs are real
Dont you feel a tear

I have written about love and I have written about hate
I still have not found the one that I'd rather date

My songs are real
Dont you feel a tear



This one is titled "reborn"


I was bought and sold before I was born...
Some call it Karma some call it fate, I know I am really torn

A father bought me, a brother sold me
I was taught nothing, I learned nothing, it seems it's not really me

a war was fought, I survived
I realized that my friend was the undead....

My wealth is my errors
all other knowledge leads to terrors

I wanted this and this I got
the good I did I forgot

This beauty this wealth I was long denied
That I myself said no, I realized...

I always said yes to you oh lord
Am I really you my god

This body falls and the sight grows dimmer
your thoughts are the only glimmer

I renounce my enemies I choose to love
Friends I know not I choose you

What happens when enemies turn into lovers
Is that the sum of all my fears?

This one I ruined that one I praised
This one loved me that one hated

I cannot see the difference between the friend the lover and the enemy
Is this what I wanted, is this me

What masks do I wear
To who am I dear



This is I guess to me....


I want you to look ahead; honey my mind is made up
Love you I do;anything for you I'd do

To love you
I have to leave you

I will give whatever it takes; I just want you to be safe
Forever I did say; Not just to make you lay in the hay

To love you
I have to leave you

Baby can't you understand; I am doing the deed
There's nobody else; I do love you indeed

To love you
I have to leave you

baby I am a wreck; You looked beautiful in that dress
baby you always said okay; Yet I am in stress

To love you
I have to leave you

To love you I have to give you up; I'll never stop loving you
I know you'll never stop caring; I just have to stop seeing you

To love you
I have to leave you

You are the one, the only one; I am not what you make me to be
You made me see laughter and joy; These tears are for me

To love you
I have to leave you

You continued giving even when there was nothing left
I know I should have never left

To love you
I have to leave you



This is to a Jewish friend who is also a Vietnam Veteran and is in physical pain


A full life you have not yet lived
Pain, is that your only friend?

Love me now
Believe me now

Morphine is now my only friend
Plenty of times past I did the deed

Love me now
Believe me now

Poppy is dear to me indeed
My friend I am diseased

Love me now
Believe me now

Stole from some and helped others in need
I remember how I rode that steed

Love me now
Believe me now

To some I was the Robin hood
I never denounced the hood

Love me now
Believe me now

He said they said I made them laugh aloud
God I hope I made you proud

Love me now
Believe me now

Let me live more O Lord
Abouth this I know I have not lied

Love me now
Believe me now

I'll forget the good I did
I'll remember the sins I commited

Love me now
Believe me now

I know I am bad
Proud to be your friend

Love me now
Believe me now